bad lookin

this is what should happen when you spend too much time looking at something you shouldn't be looking at.

your eyes should pain you like someone's reached into your head, behind your eyes, grabbed hold of your optic nerves (or whatever's back there) and is gently but cruelly holding them captive between fingers, patient fingers, fingers willing to hold on for hours.

and the pain seeps into your forehead and spreads out to your temples. it rests all around there. chills out like it's spring break or something.

but all i did was drive 4 hours.

my eyes are weaker these days, can't stand to concentrate so long, so hard.

i sound 75. i'm only 26.

but no, this doesn't happen when you've spent too much time looking at something you shouldn't be looking at. those consequences aren't so quickly recognized.