it's so not like spoken word or singing....why????? well, there are some similarities but it's all so new, so unborn, so i-don't-know-what....
and as for titles...the sight of blindness is a bit too literary and samson, why are you so stupid? is a bit too harsh. and untitled just does not work in this arena. so maybe i'll go with fill in the blank after the alter call but then i think i may never ever be asked to preach even for my class again...
what about hair that sees? still too artsy, too obscure? i don't know how to do simple. okay, help me out folks. my theme is that sometimes we have to be physically blinded in order to spiritually see. someone, please make a title for that! PLEASE!
okay. sleep awaits.
22.3.07
12.3.07
10/10
i got 10 out of 10 on my Greek quiz today. considering the fact that it's the quiz i felt the least prepared for (even though i really studied) i think of this as a miracle! i've got nothing but 9/10 every week, all semester.
it's an online quiz and we get 3 tries! today i was rushing because i only had a few minutes before class and the quiz is over at class time. so i quickly checked my answers and had a very helpless "oh well" sort of feeling then pressed the button to put an end to what seemed like torture.
when i got my results, i stared at the screen for at least 30 seconds wondering if i was seeing right. "really? nothing is wrong? but i don't even know what questions 8 and 10 were really about!"
praise the Lord! this quiz score is a small part of life but it definitely made me happy!
11.3.07
saying "thank you"
i was very bold today.
realizing that the young man walking through the door i was holding open was too occupied on his cellphone to say "thank you," i said "you're welcome"...out loud. it was the sort of moment when you don't think twice, you just do. i didn't think he'd actually be aware enough to hear. but he was and i heard an apologetic "thank you" to which i chuckled as he disappeared into the room and i continued on my way.
i know i've forgotten to say "thank you" before. i know i've been so caught up in my thoughts that i'm oblivious to another person's kindness. so i had no mean intentions...just figured it'd be fun to see what happened. and in the process, i got a reminder of how simple words can be and how necessary simple sometimes is.
realizing that the young man walking through the door i was holding open was too occupied on his cellphone to say "thank you," i said "you're welcome"...out loud. it was the sort of moment when you don't think twice, you just do. i didn't think he'd actually be aware enough to hear. but he was and i heard an apologetic "thank you" to which i chuckled as he disappeared into the room and i continued on my way.
i know i've forgotten to say "thank you" before. i know i've been so caught up in my thoughts that i'm oblivious to another person's kindness. so i had no mean intentions...just figured it'd be fun to see what happened. and in the process, i got a reminder of how simple words can be and how necessary simple sometimes is.
8.3.07
reflection
a friend's blog just reminded me of reflection's peace. so here i go...
as i think about the week, the really fun times and the stuff i'd rather blow up, God's grace becomes more apparent to me and i rest there. today will not bother tomorrow nor will it allow yesterday to stop it from dreaming...that's what i hope anyway. i keep on asking God to fill my head with His dreams. and i've decided that that's one of the best prayers i could ever pray! thanks Holy Spirit for talking!!
these days i've been dreaming quite a bit about my scholarly life, my writing life, the stuff that blossomed in chicago. yes folks, in the midst of all that concrete, something actually grew! so now the aim is to really carve out the time to do it, find intentional well-paying ways to do it :) and learn and have fun and run around in circles clapping my hands...or not. i certainly want to use the word "notion" more often and concoct crazy long sentences with intentionally smart punctuation that keeps the reader glued no matter how loud her stomach growls, no matter how hard his eyes fight to stay open, no matter how many complaints i get; simplicity isn't always effective neither is it always interesting.
these days i've also been dreaming about music, the life that grew in alberta...fertile soil. it's not that i became a diva there. oh contrare mon frere! but i learned to love God more through music, love people more through music. and now it's time to broaden that sphere, too. if i record another 8 measures on my 10-yr-old tape recorder but don't actually work to perfect anything, i think i might just lose my mind.
but before i get caught up in my dreams and forget to feed my stomach, let me wrap this up by telling you the greatest thing about this week.
i had 2 midterms (learning opportunities hehe) and as i sat in the library studying for them, God gave me one of the most beautiful insights about His love. i was literally trying to memorize details about the themes and structures of Matthew and Mark when suddenly i was thinking about how God loves me. that's not natural. i don't habitually gaze into thin air and ponder God's love especially not while hoping that all the info contained in my wonderful moleskine note book will stick in my head for the next 24 hours. but there it was, a biblical revelation of God.
i smile when i think about the fact that He still speaks.
amen amen amen
also, my learning opportunities were fabulous! yay God!
as i think about the week, the really fun times and the stuff i'd rather blow up, God's grace becomes more apparent to me and i rest there. today will not bother tomorrow nor will it allow yesterday to stop it from dreaming...that's what i hope anyway. i keep on asking God to fill my head with His dreams. and i've decided that that's one of the best prayers i could ever pray! thanks Holy Spirit for talking!!
these days i've been dreaming quite a bit about my scholarly life, my writing life, the stuff that blossomed in chicago. yes folks, in the midst of all that concrete, something actually grew! so now the aim is to really carve out the time to do it, find intentional well-paying ways to do it :) and learn and have fun and run around in circles clapping my hands...or not. i certainly want to use the word "notion" more often and concoct crazy long sentences with intentionally smart punctuation that keeps the reader glued no matter how loud her stomach growls, no matter how hard his eyes fight to stay open, no matter how many complaints i get; simplicity isn't always effective neither is it always interesting.
these days i've also been dreaming about music, the life that grew in alberta...fertile soil. it's not that i became a diva there. oh contrare mon frere! but i learned to love God more through music, love people more through music. and now it's time to broaden that sphere, too. if i record another 8 measures on my 10-yr-old tape recorder but don't actually work to perfect anything, i think i might just lose my mind.
but before i get caught up in my dreams and forget to feed my stomach, let me wrap this up by telling you the greatest thing about this week.
i had 2 midterms (learning opportunities hehe) and as i sat in the library studying for them, God gave me one of the most beautiful insights about His love. i was literally trying to memorize details about the themes and structures of Matthew and Mark when suddenly i was thinking about how God loves me. that's not natural. i don't habitually gaze into thin air and ponder God's love especially not while hoping that all the info contained in my wonderful moleskine note book will stick in my head for the next 24 hours. but there it was, a biblical revelation of God.
i smile when i think about the fact that He still speaks.
amen amen amen
also, my learning opportunities were fabulous! yay God!