the summer

sometimes you need to just smile or pose or whatever in front of a camera. and then you have to review the madness and smile, laugh, say "what was i thinking?" and then post them so the www can see : )

with bro anthony and dad....our facial expressions kill me!

me and tricia @ campmeeting -- she's such a blessing...

me and lauri in maryland....i've loved her voice since i was like 5 yrs old!

with lola, one of my classmates--an incredible vocalist! so smooth and honest in her sound...

with dean madrigal and cara--we slept on the beach!

surrender...random (very random) thoughts

talked with a friend about what sabbath observance is all about
talked to another friend about how our concept of time factors into sabbath observance
got a better perspective to approach first friend with regarding the sabbath
read a chapter for spiritual formation class about surrender and got frustrated...

who am i to tell you how to use your time? who am i to judge your level of surrender? who am i when i haven't surrendered anything 100%?

well, ptl i'm searching right? and this is what the Spirit revealed today as i read for class, as i wondered how in the world i'm supposed to be juggling all of my responsibilities and do each one well:

1. i do what i can, believing that God will do the rest. i do what i can to the best of my ability, resting in the knowledge that God will do the rest. i want an "A" in ever class particularly so that if i apply to any phd program, my grades won't be a hindrance...if i'm supposed to apply to any phd program and i'm doing my best with God's help then He'll help me get the grades i need....

2. i stop running because running is a sign that i'm trying to do things solo and realize that it won't work. i must trust others. no man is an island...

3. (there's more to learn even today, i'm sure)