(wish i had a laptop...soon.)
i'm feeling a bit restless but awefully tired and yet happy all at once. despite the last post, i'm a happy woman. so i'd rather stay awake and contemplate my happiness.
i'm in the office that i share with 3 others. my plants are here b/c my place is too cold at the moment (carpets drying). and these suckers are just florishing. my word! maybe one will have to take up residence here permanently. or maybe i'll just cut off a piece in a few days, repot it and leave it. a plant will certainly do this space good. am i my mother's child or what? ha
i'm also happy about other things like friends calling and having good convo and remembering past escapades and looking forward to future gatherings.
amidst all the craziness of life, i'm loving it still...so i don't want to sleep, just want to ponder...
29.7.06
keeping it real
how does that go exactly? how do i maintain honesty when folks don't want to hear it and when i'm not even always open to the option? and how do i stay positive as i council others?
girl, they aren't all bad. trust me, there's hope, there's one for you.
sure, it's truth and i'm not anywhere close to man-hating but so many women are and it's hard to help them see hope when the list of "not there yets" grows longer and longer with every passing week.
i think this is my first "what's the problem with men" sort of post and i don't plan to make it a habit. guess i'm just frustrated...and not just with the men but also with the women. i want to tell some of them some stuff they aren't ready to hear.
get yourself in order. recognize your unhealthy cycle and get help. and for crying out loud get that "i'm desperate" sign off your face!
okay, i should probably go back to bed. i was comfortably there when the phone rang and...yeah, i got up, etc.
just wish more folks had the relationship peace i've got. can't we all just be? guess i've got just enough good men in my life--from dad to brother to uncles to friends--and for that i praise the Lord!
girl, they aren't all bad. trust me, there's hope, there's one for you.
sure, it's truth and i'm not anywhere close to man-hating but so many women are and it's hard to help them see hope when the list of "not there yets" grows longer and longer with every passing week.
i think this is my first "what's the problem with men" sort of post and i don't plan to make it a habit. guess i'm just frustrated...and not just with the men but also with the women. i want to tell some of them some stuff they aren't ready to hear.
get yourself in order. recognize your unhealthy cycle and get help. and for crying out loud get that "i'm desperate" sign off your face!
okay, i should probably go back to bed. i was comfortably there when the phone rang and...yeah, i got up, etc.
just wish more folks had the relationship peace i've got. can't we all just be? guess i've got just enough good men in my life--from dad to brother to uncles to friends--and for that i praise the Lord!
7.7.06
from the heart
though i fear verbal diarrhea in this moment, it's about time i write...it's been so long...feels like months and months but it's only been weeks.
let's start with blessing:
1. i'm still happy to be here. my advisor keeps asking me if i'm still happy with my decision to come...it's part of his way of checking up on me, making sure i'm doing alright. we met yesterday to arrange my schedule for the fall semester. it's nice to have people who know your parents and can talk about when your parents weren't your parents...the dating fazes...lovely!
2. my apartment finally looks as though someone actually likes living there. most of the boxes have been put in proper places. the bright curtains add such life that the boxes sort of overshadowed.
3. i'm developing a ministry here in the dorm...it's part of my DA job and i'm glad...it's a part of my job that i'll really enjoy. i've already spoken to one resident who i want to get on board because of her charisma and to help nurture that charisma. i'm now responsible (by a certain age/maturity level we all develop a responsibility we cannot afford to shun) for guiding those younger than me whenever possible. i'm humbled by the task and also excited to see how God will work through me. this is "together" lamson hall style...
4. i was asked to sing for a program tonight. i had a really "blah" kind of day, the sort that doesn't go according to plan, not because of any major interactions but simply because i'm absolutely mentally exhausted. i had a plan, a really great plan. and i actually got some major things accomplished. as i look back on the day, i'm quite surprised and grateful to see how much God helped me do. but i wish i'd taken the planned nap...that was crucial. but back to the music...i didn't feel very prepared to sing. i hadn't spent the sort of time i'm used to spending right before a performance. i prayed for help and i sang from my heart. that's what you have to do whenever you do anything to glorify God. if it's not guided by God and from the heart, someone won't hear what he/she is supposed to hear.
5. i get to go to bed now : )
let's start with blessing:
1. i'm still happy to be here. my advisor keeps asking me if i'm still happy with my decision to come...it's part of his way of checking up on me, making sure i'm doing alright. we met yesterday to arrange my schedule for the fall semester. it's nice to have people who know your parents and can talk about when your parents weren't your parents...the dating fazes...lovely!
2. my apartment finally looks as though someone actually likes living there. most of the boxes have been put in proper places. the bright curtains add such life that the boxes sort of overshadowed.
3. i'm developing a ministry here in the dorm...it's part of my DA job and i'm glad...it's a part of my job that i'll really enjoy. i've already spoken to one resident who i want to get on board because of her charisma and to help nurture that charisma. i'm now responsible (by a certain age/maturity level we all develop a responsibility we cannot afford to shun) for guiding those younger than me whenever possible. i'm humbled by the task and also excited to see how God will work through me. this is "together" lamson hall style...
4. i was asked to sing for a program tonight. i had a really "blah" kind of day, the sort that doesn't go according to plan, not because of any major interactions but simply because i'm absolutely mentally exhausted. i had a plan, a really great plan. and i actually got some major things accomplished. as i look back on the day, i'm quite surprised and grateful to see how much God helped me do. but i wish i'd taken the planned nap...that was crucial. but back to the music...i didn't feel very prepared to sing. i hadn't spent the sort of time i'm used to spending right before a performance. i prayed for help and i sang from my heart. that's what you have to do whenever you do anything to glorify God. if it's not guided by God and from the heart, someone won't hear what he/she is supposed to hear.
5. i get to go to bed now : )